the fear and the yearing, it's gonna eat you alive

photo by the ever-amazing joseph pascual.

wore this last week when i met up with joseph and other friends at up film institute. i miss being in up.

what i wore:
stripes sweater | banana republic
carrot-fit trousers | topman
boat shoes-style sneakers | vans
aviator eyeglasses | gianfranco ferre

two things about that photo:
1. it summarizes the way i'm feeling right now - stressed. being stressed actually helps me function better. i tend to accomplish more things when i'm pressured. but right now, i can't seem to juggle preparing lectures, doing photography/video rackets and trying to set up a really small business. strugs.
2. i got that sweater during my last trip to the us. that was actually the first time i wore it and i really love how it's a little bit big on me and it felt so comfortable. it's perfect for the current cold, breezy weather in manila. i saw the sweater a few days later, after being washed, and it shrunk so much. sayang!

joseph featured this in the powersnet blog by john robert powers. check it out here!

music fix: positive tension by bloc party

2010

my 2010 in photos:

january


(visual merchandising final project under dustin reyes. i spent the whole christmas break rushing to finish this.)


(first batibot fields tambay of 2010.)


(a semi-spontaneous tagaytay overnight trip.)

february


(conceptualizing and executing the sofa styling exhibit at rockwell as part of brasilipinas 2010.)


(at the brasilipinas 2010 fashion show with friends from sofa.)

march


(epic cubao x night.)


(shooting my first "fashion editorial" entitled from dusk 'till dawn with my sofa partner-in-crime mel lim.)

april


(presented my final marketing project aka thesis at sofa.)


(kira plastinina at sofa.)


(batangas day trip with high school barkada.)

may


(first dose of frozen yogurt ever.)



(sofa graduation fashion show at philippine fashion week holiday '10.)



june


(doing trilogy boutique's anniversary window and in-store displays.)


(getting a copy of bret easton ellis' imperial bedrooms ahead of everyone else.)


(best birthday ever: metrowear fashion show and dinner with these three people and some of my sofa friends.)

july


(lime88 with sofa friends.)


(my midterms project for roots of philippine fashion at sofa.)

august


(optimism saturdays with sam and judd.)


(epic meiday at cubao x night.)


(getting photography rackets from my friends at sofa.)

september


(batibot x ponti.)


(batangas field trip for roots in philippine fashion.)


(gian abrahan's epic where's the hat party at future followed by an equally epic after party at goodah greenhills.)


(first time to drape something - final project for roots in philippine fashion entitled ang paghihimagsik ni maria clara.)


(sofa term-ender party at ponti with non-sofa friends nissy, sam and judd.)

october


(first time traveling alone. stop-over at korea.)


(spending fall in the us.)

november


(dressing up my niece sophia as a fairy for halloween.)


(6 days in new york... alone.)

december


(first time to experience snow.)


(epic batibot tambay.)


(the first annual VEENEX christmas brunch.)


(epic fireworks display at the 2010 lantern parade in up.)

here's hoping that my 2011 will be just as, if not more, epic than my 2010. have a happy new year!

music fix: beach house's all the years

kids at the disco

my first-ever attempt at fashion photography



kids at the disco
film 132: production design finals project by judd figuerres, up diliman
march 2009
concept & styling: judd figuerres
styling assistant: pat mosby
photography: fold canela
models: joseph pascual, jopet reyes, nissy san jose and rk villanueva



















music fix: heads will roll by yeah yeah yeahs

no regrets, just love

my friend roanne had her second shooting day for her thesis last october 2. she was supposed to graduate a semester earlier, but almost all of her blockmates decided to take their time shooting their respective short films.



i promised her i'd come to one of her shoots to help out. i wasn't able to read the script prior to the shoot so i tried to do a rundown of the sequences we were to shoot that day. her film title's a mouthful but it ran along the lines of ang ika-tatlongpung kaarawan ni susan.



joma was my thesis partner two years ago. roanne got him as production designer for her thesis. production design was an aspect of filmmaking i really focused on back when i was still a student. i think joma and i really make an awesome pd team.



this is what we do in between takes. sasha is one-half of the film's wardrobe team.



kimie is roanne's assistant director.



here she is blocking two of the actors for the first sequence to be shot for the day.



today's cinematographer is aaron.



and this is the camera he's shooting with for roanne's film. two years ago, we all had to rent really big, heavy and expensive cameras, whether film or digital, to shoot our theses. now, almost everyone goes for the hd video function on high-end dslrs. the quality is more or less the same but costs really cheap to rent. roanne borrowed this dslr from my friend joseph, i think.



oh by the way, roanne's working part-time as a barista at a starbucks in las pinas.



kimie always manages to catch gorgeous light!



first shot of the day.



this is donna. she's also part of the pd team.



we moved outside to shoot the next couple of sequences.



since thesis films are usually low-budget, everyone multi-tasks. sometimes the director also serves as the cinematographer. i've heard of one thesis in which the director was also the production designer. donna and whammy also served as extras for roanne's film.



here's joma modeling my cardigan as a cape, hahaha!



while they were shooting a sequence which invloved balloons, the pd team went to the next location, in mandaluyong, to prepare. oh did i mention that our first location is in alabang? travel time was around 2 hours. there were some miscommunication between roanne's logistics and the location which further delayed the shoot. anywho, i wasn't able to take much bts photos after that because we were moving double time to finish the shoot. we had a 12 midnight deadline to finish all the sequences.



this is kim c. she's also shooting her thesis this semester.



lara is the other half of the wardrobe team.



and this is kim a. being haggard in a shoot is not an excuse to not look good.



whammy is allowed to dilly-dally...



... kimie isn't.



in the end, roanne wasn't able to shoot two sequences, but i think she already found a way to, in the words of tim gunn, make it work. so good luck with your defense roanne! i'm sure you're gonna do amazing!

music fix: teenage dream by katy perry